Friday, July 30, 2004
i can't get over the fact that she could be so.. straightforward..
friend or foe...? it's so weird.. it's not a friend relationship anymore..
wake up.. this is lifee. reality succks. hee..
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 2:56 PM
2:56 PM
hais. these few days no time to update much. nothing happened. except for rach's b'day~ so now.. updating now. gtg soon.. got cell later. z. PRELIMS COMING. someone helppp. i mean. my results really suck. i mean it's true. it's not even like a B standard.. but then, i can't wait to get outta this school.. and seek a new life~ a new direction to head towards..
for the stuff that i'm updating on today.. there might be some disagreements. but then, since this is my blog after all, i might as well just speak my mind. of course, it won't be that detailed. =)
todayy. it's friday. a boringg day. zz! let's see.. can't remember what i did before pe.. it was lame after all.. today's events in the morning seem a little blurry. i shall start from pe lesson.. anyways, during pe.. i followed steph, joann and sheena~ we walked outside school and chatted. lol.. please don't follow in our footsteps. it's a bad excuse for not exercising.. hahas~ it was fun! okokays.. a bit lame. cos we were at the playground outside school~ then whenever we see ms lim coming, we'll start running around.. like how lame is that? =pPp~ after that, we went to play captains ball or something.. it's the usual~
hmms, following that is english lesson. man.. we watched a movie after getting a dressing down. what can i say.. she's just kinda hurtful.. and who doesn't know that she's quite biased too.. =( arghs. whenever i'm ard her, i don't feel the same anymore.. it's like she's looking at our every aspect? it's just that i don't wanna offend her. maybe i'm a victim already. this topic is just too touchy for my blog.. i felt quite.. pissed ? i dunno.. i have to agree that she made some sense. by comparing us to 4a.. i mean.. it clearly protrays a distinct difference. more obvious this year than in previous years. besides.. prelims are in 3 weeks. i really wonder how we'll get by. even though the hardwork is put in.. but it's quite late to make amendments now because.. it's hard to catch up now.. for me.. i guess.. it's more difficult.. there's just this X factor that we don't have.. i can't pinpoint what. maybe u all don't understand.. nvm.. by asking me to work harder and not smarter, results won't show. that's for sure.. forget it. i think i'm talking crap again.. perhaps.. i'm not confident of myself. like what she said, we must be sure of ourselves.. =(
i'm nott~
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 2:25 PM
2:25 PM
Wednesday, July 28, 2004
no mood to update. haha.. must be the first one to wish rach happie b'day! =)
aha..
the only gd thing.. is that my humanz are doing alright. prelims comin soon..
man.. dead~
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 5:10 PM
5:10 PM
Sunday, July 25, 2004
hey guys!
yesterday had an emath mock exam. hmms.. nothing much to say abt it. wells, after that went to eat with class peeps! lols.. den sul, fir, tng, zs, doc, luq they all followed me n steph around! hahaa. so funny~ cos we went 'shopping'.. and the guys expressed their boredom by telling us how silly gurls like to window shop. man.. how are they ever gonna get themselves attached with this mentality! =x
oh yea. after that steph went off.. took the mrt with sul to pasir ris.. i went to ws library to study with dan and cor.. but cor left earlier so only left me and dan.. and we started sms-ing each other although he was just next to me. -.-" haha. den me and dan a bit late for church.. we had 2 hrs + of worship! woots~ jump jump jump~ niceee. haha.. but then.. our voices are going.. *cough cough* anyways, we had area cell at the grace chapel. lol.. just like another session of church. had the surmon outline and yet another round of worship. we got dismissed at 9. *he was like delaying the worship. v v hungry and cold. :(* by then, we were damn hungry! like hungry ghosts.. so me and germs were rushing to bk.. leading the cell..
after eating, me germs and kim had to leave extra early. *10 pm. =x* and there was another guy..
stalking us. haha.. but we managed to shake him off somehow.. boy, was it tiring! when i came back, was too tired to do anythin! haiis. another day of not studying. too too slack gurl! *slaps myself.*
anyways.. started playing cronous. i think i deserve another slap. *ouchies.*
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 11:52 AM
11:52 AM
Thursday, July 22, 2004
just learned about something..
to that someoneee. cheer up gurlll. haiis. yea.. it's sad and all.. but never give up on life. maybe it's just a misunderstandingg.
lack of security.. =(
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 8:05 PM
8:05 PM
Wednesday, July 21, 2004
i've overcome the obstacle..! hahas.. oral!! yay. it's over.. and i'm glad it went okay. =) and.. all glory goes to god.. cos i prayed that the words would just come to my mind.. and it did..! praise him~
no time to update a long one. hees.. today boring day.. got punished during chi for not doing some stuff. zz~ then.. me and dotx purposely dun wanna sit down. lol.. standing really helps one concentrate more.. after that, the rest of the day pracs. rush here and there btwn lessons. hahas.. den my class hot topic: THIS FRIDAY! wootz. traditional costumess.
me and dotx skipped emath remedial to prepare for oral. lols.. we read and read.. used all kinds of accents.. funny! =pPp~ well. and it was a pretty long wait for out turns. we even took a nap!.. had time to stroll to the toilet in the old block.. *i didn't peek at anything! haha.. -upright n honesttt.*
we felt light hearted after the oral.. as though the stress and burden got lifted off our shoulders. soooo. we decided to treat ourselves! yea.. ice cream.. despite my effort to keep to the diet. haiss. yea.. and that's that! the end of the day.. tml's another exciting day. hopefully.. studies can go bite the dust for now.. till then, enjoy ur life! friday come quick!
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 6:29 PM
6:29 PM
Tuesday, July 20, 2004
life's getting duller with each day.. and probably my positive outlook of life has been slowly fading away.. things are kinda not going the way it should.. setbacks, demoralisations.. it's nothing new.. tml's oral.. hopefully i can regain back some of the confidence that i used to possess. has it been shattered ? haha.. maybe chipped.. =p~
i've got tons of work to do.. slept the whole afternoon away.. how wise of me.. hais. emath hw especially + ss and geog. a combination that any student would dread. *sleepless nights.. here i comee!* dunno how am i gonna cope with it.. failed many emath tests recently. though had 2 distinctions. more failures though.. ahah.. zz~ gotta go do work. but sometimes i just feel like taking a break. =(
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 9:39 PM
9:39 PM
Sunday, July 18, 2004
eff. i can't find my eL hw. why does it have to happen all the timeeeeeeeeeeee!?!? =( damn pissed with myself. where did i place it.. got too many things.. haiiis.
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 7:26 PM
7:26 PM
Saturday, July 17, 2004
yet another day..
today we had amath.. yea. hmms.. the paper was relatively fine.. so breezed through.. besides, ka kui was just next to me. lol.. zz! learnt a lesson.. when he's doing math, NV ever disturb him. the others learnt a "painful" lesson too. dunno what to say.. oh yea.. after that went to each a cup to get some snacks.. me went with steph to tm to get someone's prezzie while azi and dotx went back to sch for geog remedial. hees..
after we got a wallet for that someone, we went looking for clothes.. but den all not nice de.. so nvm.. after which we went to take a neocard.. hmm. steph had to put foundation first.. lol. she's soo image conscious! =p.. me zhi bei ar.. it turned out.. well.. okay i guess. at least it was presentable. =x nvms.. next time take sticker one. haha..
haha.. that steph is a clothes freak! like i never realised. we went this fashion and looked here and there.. from teenage fashion to matured working clothes and gowns. lol. =pPp steph looks gd in most things anyway.. =p
dunno what else to say. my life's just pretty dull and stuff..
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 5:16 PM
5:16 PM
Friday, July 16, 2004
dunno why i feel so irritable and disturbed.. srryy.
maybe i felt that way jus now cos i caredd.
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 9:21 PM
9:21 PM
todayys a boring day. hahas.. i went back to play pristontale. probably p2p after the O's. =pPp!! yea. have to stop playin le. siannn!
today's fri.. so veh little lessons conducted. hmm.. during pe, the rain on off on off one. lols.. we play a while den rain again. zz. after that, walked in the rain.. feels so nice.. being pelted with water. lols.. after that we had english.. i started reading harry potter book 1. planning to finish all before the prelims. hees.. den after that. we went to the hall for what interect club's 19th anniversary or something. haha.. kinda boring.. the ONLY interesting part was the MODERN DANCE! woots! feliciaaa. u rawk gurl.. wah sehs. u dance veh nice lehs. but den.. err. u always did anyway. haha.. niceee performance. =)
we had a meeting after that. contents... i dun wanna reveal now or anytime soon. and i was very upset over something.. not upset.. jus.. undescribable. =( and it's not abt the band.. it was abt.. .. .. =x
hmms.. got the band tee. and den went for choir concert! haha.. SHPS!!! yea! i knew they were a gd choir. heh.. when they sing ar.. it sends shivers all over one. ahha.. veh refreshing. =x yea.. jasm jasl james and elroy sang quite well. the last part was a bit weird though.. overall vehh well done.. hees. dunman choir also sang quite well.. but they seemed a lil soft.. considering there were sooOo many people. =p.. no offenseee. anywaysss, enjoyed myself pretty much.
for now.. gtg study something. or do some hw..
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 8:39 PM
8:39 PM
Tuesday, July 13, 2004
saddd! 1. My tagboard is gone!!! 2. I'm down for english remedial! omgomg.. time to start reading like nuts! 3. Some band people. I'm speechless.
hahas.. went to kev's place jus noww. ^^ at least managed to study.. gotta thank kev for putting up with us.. *esp daniel!! =x* lol.. bleahs. stupid cze kin. i'm notttt cordelia. =x
den as i was coming back, i saw lynn mummy!!! hugged her. ^^ haiiss. long time nv see her le. brings back former sweet band memories. =) haha.. her hairstyle as wacky as ever. =pPp mj got a hugeee band. haha.. *reconsiders whether i shld join mj band* ahh wells. lets jus see how things go.
ran hou, *chinese.. haha..* me followed steph back to sch to take her preciousssss *exaggerated* calculator. haha.. after that, we proceeded home. duhs. hmms. den i met dotx at the bus stop! haha.. diaos.. but i didn't wanna take 3 to destroy the atmosphere sooo, i took 81 back home. yea.. supposed to be studying. will go soon. and probably make up for the time lost at night.
as for the people that im disappointed with, all i can say is that.. the band spirit is really lost. dunno if it's for good or not.. but there's still hope of reviving it cos there're more LOYAL people around. not like some of those 'ungrateful' peeps. when i saw u all, it seemed different in a sense. there was no bonding anymore. jus pure strangers. man, was i sad. just becos of this, the band that the previous batches have been trying to built up, has crumbled. the last syf.. it was ssoooo close. thought this time round the gold will be secured, but however.. things have changed. i seriously dunno what is wrong but if u all think running away from it is gonna solve it, after the O's.. u all jus wait. that's when we sec 4s have the time. dun wanna say so much le. dun even know why i wanna say this. zz!
tataz peopleee!
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 5:27 PM
5:27 PM
Saturday, July 10, 2004
yos people of the WORLD~
dots now at my house. know that she tried to peep at me showering ok! but can't lars. no transparent doors or what. =p~ now her turn to bathe. hehes. anyways. i damn hungry! cos of x country! hahas. 42 in position.. *out of like 200 over. =x* hais~ sian. tried to find my previous years medals so that i can put with them but they're gone!!! sobs. saddd man~ dunno where they went to. *sulksss.* =(
later we both have oral.. conducted by ms poh~ lols. sure die one. cos she so strict. what to do.. just face the music~ have to go eat now. hungry!!! den later steph coming with marcus in a car! send us to tm.. dots n me doing a bit of shopping. yea! hahas. no time le. tataz~
Full Metal Panic Fumoffu rawks!
*jan! plspslpslsplsss studyyyyyy. hais. scared of prelims!*
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 12:15 PM
12:15 PM
Friday, July 09, 2004
tiring day man!! hahas. had cell at our place.. den many people came over~ lols. except that germs *leave me along with -ahemss-!! =(* and a few others.. haha.. started off watching full metal panic! woots. kev!! i think dan wanna watch too. =x lols. and hui juan ars. she want me to burn that show into a cd for her. lols.. this is called advertising. =x wells. after that, we had a great session of worship!! yea~ lols. with daniel leading the session. den after that, the word.. which was quite dry. *n boring.. but ahh wells. =p* anyways, after that we locked cze kin and kenny outside the balcony.. man.. cze kin damn gross!!! haas. dots!
soon after, cordelia and the rest left my place while trili, cze kin, dan and kenny stayed back to swim. hmms. it was already dark when we went down. lols.. den i had to keep watch of their stuff whats. later i held responsible how. =pPp~ cannot pay for everything knows. haha.. wells, swam until now den i come back.. gonna start on some work. *hais. i damn SLACK! die ar.. even dan wanna work harder le. den my results worse den him. won't it be harder..* anyways, think they all going for dinner. haas.. tml X country and eL oral!! ahha.. yea. whatever. lazy to think about stuff..
hmms. feel that we're drifting apart. hahas.. funny feeling.. but it can't be helped rite.. u have ur plans and i have mine. besides.. studies.. hais~ sometimes i just ponder... about different scenarios... what wld happen.. haas. this sounds crappy and silly though..
Trili: hey gurl!! are u readin this ? haha. hope u are. niways, thx for coming to my place for cell twice despite not knowing how to me place. haha.. i won't blame u for that. =p~ hees.. had fun with ya.. den i wish ya all the best in Australia.. lols. cya in 5 mths time. when we all sec 4s can parrtttieee and have lots of fun! hahas.. looking forward to that~ until then, good luck! god bless!
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 8:43 PM
8:43 PM
Thursday, July 08, 2004
Hahas. My blooggie's much better now. Better side box. Bigger and well. Pleasant to the eye! ^^ This blog does seem a lil plain though. Hmmmm...
Why is everyone trying to pon Cross Country!? Isn't it the coolest!~ hahaa.. zz. man. At least do something to bribe me!!! zz.
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 5:44 PM
5:44 PM
Wednesday, July 07, 2004
I'm veh angry. So i'll kinda spare the crap. Anyways, u guys can't and never will understand. My brothers are not normal. They're just computer geeks with no life. Perhaps they do. They lead lifes which are meant to be 'slaves' to the computer for their whole teen life. Computer Zombies i would say. They game like 24-7. damnits. Why do i have such WEIRDOs as brothers. Man.. Trying to appease myself.. And accept the fact that they ARE my brothers forever or something. -.-"
I wanna use the other com~~~ Hais. It's unfair how they go "Oh.. It's MY com. Not yours.. So u have no right to actually take a share in using the com." They veh shit one lehs. Last time, when they didn't have 'their own' com.. They weren't so )(&#!*@!_. *Fill in da blanks.* Damnit mans. ARGHS!!! =( =(.. Whyy do such people existttt. So self centred.. NO LIFE!!! I'm serious. 100% dead serious. I think one day. Just one fine day, they'd probably drop dead in front of the com. *Even if it means in their 80's, they'll still be a com geek.* And i don't think that they'll prove me wrong.
Anyways, I'll still get to use at 7. You know why ? Cos they aren't using it at 7! And when my parents come back, I'll take all the blame instead of them. Worst of all, they sacrificed their studies for gaming. I mean.. Even I myself don't get the previledge. I slog my guts out when they're gaming, eating, watching tv. Even when they're sleeping at night. Just because my parents need someone who can actually bring the family glory. And the person is me. Only me. The both of them.. Hais.. Don't put in effort at all.. Sorry.. I wrote so much crap. But I'm really kinda sick of them. I dunno. Who knows.. I study so much, in the end.. Maybe I'll end up having the same standard of living as them. But i don't find it fair. But life was never fair right. I dunno.. I'll never know until one day when I'm grown up.
Just wait.. I'll show them. And make them regret not studying hard. -.-"
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 6:39 PM
6:39 PM
Tuesday, July 06, 2004
It sucks not having ur own com. =(
anyways. I'm still not happy with this blog template! hahas. I'm soOo choosy. What can i say. I'm a perfectionist! ^^
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 6:44 PM
6:44 PM
Updating today's events..
My pristontale Prs now lv 35. Congrats to me for making it this far! lols.. Not easy okays.. =pPp~ Being pinned down with homework and remedials.. hahas. Anyways~ Today, I went out at 2+ cos i had to meet my cell peeps in tm to get ticz. But I was late cos of some problem. *Not bcos i was late ok! It's something else~* =p~ Then, I smsed dan to tell him that i'd be late.. So, I managed to reach cs by 3.15 and went to look for them in Mount Zion. The thing was that.. THEY DIDN'T MANAGE TO GET SM2 TICS!!! omg. So, I felt a bit *diaos* -.-".. Like kinda wasted my time spent on homework. hahas. But then i still needed to get my hw from dan. So, can't say that it was a total waste. *Now.. this *updating blog* is definately a waste of time. lols.. Anyways, after that they suggested going shopping and at the same time, look for Jeanette at PastaMania. lol.. Dan they all took their time looking for clothes and stuff at U2 and Giodarno which I personally felt was not my cuppa tea. No variety there. ahhas. Different dress sense i guess. o.O.. After that, we went to the 4th floor but they (Jeanette and Samuel) weren't there le. So too bad for Cordelia. No treats!! hahas~
We got really bored after that then the guys suggested going to play soccer/football. *whatever!* lols. -Spare the crap/details- After eating pizza and playing with small kids meanwhile polluting their brain with worthless junk, we went to tampines sec that side to play basketball. *Not we actually.. The guys did.* To cut things short, Cze Kin and gang challenged another group to a basketball match but got thrashed bad. lols. Ahh wells. We got seperated from the guys then went home soon after getting some french fries~ For now, it's time to get serious and down to work. cyax tml~
And.. HAPPY YOUTH DAY ALL U YOUNGSTERS OUT THERE!
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 4:03 PM
4:03 PM
My midi music is now the opening song to Full Metal Panic Fumoffu.
Hahas. Sounds familiar to some of u rite ? ^^ It rocks man! lols. -.-"" Anyways. My homework not done yets. Have to get started on some. Hope that daniel helps me get my hw from class. hees. Later I should be going out ba.. =p
Enjoy da music~ Let it fill ya soul~ tatas!
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 4:01 PM
4:01 PM
Sunday, July 04, 2004
Took so long to do up this!!!
Arghss. There's still some problem. Thats it for today! -Tired- + *Frustrated!*
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 12:10 PM
12:10 PM
Friday, July 02, 2004
I dunno what to say. Why did i screw it this bad. Question answer wrongly. Only me and the chers know how badly i did. I'm serious.
Lord, I just need a miracle. That would be good. *sighs*
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 8:14 PM
8:14 PM
Thursday, July 01, 2004
Supposed to meet Steph but couldn't find her. Hais~
Think i wanna go cut my hair again. Looks like leaving long hair isn't gonna be easy after all..
Tml's Chinese Orals! =(
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 6:04 PM
6:04 PM
